Pandya, i was initiated when i was 17. my father tormented me all the way, i felt difficulties and anger pretty much as you. Started the extreme path with my Guru, i soon found myself in prison for many years, completely free from father, with all i need to do a good sadhana in environment close to shmashan. That's the possible way how Chandi or Pratyangira may help you too. The idea of quick Moksha is more like a phantom; better find a way to love all in your life. Guruji Amritananda may help you. Dear Manblunder ji may help you

Hello mr. If you are this eager then you can take initiation from my guru brahmrishi shree kumar swami ji, my guru give open deeksha in pandal. Guru goes to all over India and some foreign countries as well. He can give you both saptashati and navaran mantra deeksha as well as laghu shodashi and other kavach. Currently the next samagam will happen on 29 july (guru Purnima) panchkula, haryana you will have to stay there for the whole night. For more details and update you can check guru instagram @shreekumarswami.

Pandya ji, this is the one in whom all my Guru Mandala abides, and this is the only way that is truly mine - my Kali-Durga worship is a little current within this Guru. He is not exactly the one who initiated me, but he is the greatest living one in the Mandala. Look: i myself do not have an ability to initiate. I can advise you to read "The Guru and the Goddess" - a book about Śri Amritananda natha Saraswati, the Guru of my Guru: he was one of the first SriVidya Gurus taught by Mahadevi to share wisdom openly; read and feel contact with him - you may surely be welcome to the current of his mercy; you may find there a mantra which was given to him straightly by Sri Devi - it contains his name; some say that it can me practiced with the only condition - bhakti towards him and Devi. Then you may seek for further initiations through Devipuram, or to stay with the mantra alone. Also, it would rise your chance to have a reply from Śri Swaprakashananda Guruji. I say it to you with blessings.

Anyone know who can help with the initiation of this. Please reply; thank you in advance.

Hi Mohan, Did you find Guru for this? I am also looking for help.

Krishna garu, Can you help me in initiation of this Bagalamukhi mantra? Or do you know anyone can help ?

Namaskaram, I am looking for Ashtakshari / Narayana mantra initiation. Anyone know who can help me. thank you in advance.

Mr, I would like to give an answer that may ease your heart’s pain over this. My knowledge is very small but I can feel your mind is tormented over this and that your heart is very good. Really these things are beyond our human understanding in more ways than I can imagine, but this is how I reckon with it: Depending on which philosophy and path one follows, trika, vasistadvaita, advaita Vedanta, shaiva siddhanta, ramanujacharya dvaita etc, it could be described in some way that the atman of the animal itself, or the paramatman itself, is desirous to have the experience of being made bali. And, from other angles, is also desirous of the experience to do the sacrifice and to receive the sacrifice. It is simultaneously daunting and haunting, and feels tragic, to see a struggling kid goat taken to have his head chopped, and those feeling of profound sadness are also within the field of the desire of the Supreme, as well as our own higher selves for some traditions. I don’t know if this will ease your heart at all. The other thing, is that the shastras, even the Vedas, discuss rakta bali at length and praise it very highly. One thing that some note, is the staggering karma benefits of being made bali. If one follows those scriptures, then it is simultaneously possible to feel your heart break while recognizing that these little ones going to be sacrificed are extremely blessed by their momentary suffering. I can’t know why Sakti is like this, but she is all there is. One day it may be much different here and there will be no more bali, or it could be the opposite. In any case, it all occurs within the field of consciousness, and my personal belief is that the nature of that field is motherly, is compassionate. Whatever occurs in the field, is rectified into this love, and is fundamentally Ānanda. Hope this may ease your heart a little

Amargi ji i requested him too , and he ask my all details , then i gave it , but then there's no response , i dont get this , why why all so called gurus are doing this ; first of all mantras dont activate without initiation in tantra and when i m looking for a guru from so long time requested all gurus whom i am able to find, contact them but they are not giving me initiation ; same happened with sriram sir ; i sent him descibed him all the things , but he didnt respond whether he'll initiate me or not ; don't know how to find proper path in crucial conditions ; right now i'm jst chanting 32 names of durga 32 times daily , hope anybody shows mercy on me and initiates me ; any way if amargi ji u had done navarna sadhna frm 15 years, can u initiate me in it ? can u help me in it ? feeling really tired and very much frustrated by requesting so many places and getting no responses from everywhere.

it is said that vira is one who sacrifices the animal of his manas to Kali; no one should think that he is such, if not provided by the Guru; if provided, bali is an inner mystery, signed by outer ritual, which is bliss for all, including the animal.