James Cowan had earlier shared his experience on April 01, 2015, which can be read in this link Personal experience of James Cowan
It has been 18 months since the Maha Shodasi mantra went ajapa for me. I am now firmly in the Shiva state. The state is indescribable and can only be experienced to be truly understood. Ravi tells me that it can take up to 6 years for the Shiva state to manifest after going ajapa. This post is mainly for the benefit of those who are already in ajapa or for those who, like me, have decided to continue Maha Shodasi mantra even though they are in ajapa for spiritual benefits and to remain close to Divine Mother. I started the purascharana in September 2015 and have completed approximately 300,000 repetitions of the mantra and will complete a purascharana of 900,000 later this year. I plan on completing many purascharanas, as I am 30 years old now and wish to see what mysteries the mantra can unfold for me for the rest of my life. It has been a miraculous journey so far and every day I count my many blessings and know that I am in exalted company. Namaste to all.
Visions - At around the 100,000 mark of my japa, I began to observe a purplish divine light at night time when I was around traffic lights or the lights around cars. The light would change position whenever I made eye contact and it seemed to dance and move between other sources of light. Sometimes it would be a dozen purple circles and other times red, or green or blue. The light is sometimes small or other times resembling fireworks. This light is Divine Mother and the sight is an ultimate blessing. She appeared once in a doorway in dazzling red and other times in the blazing sun She appeared as a light blue figure. I started having these visions every few days and I have even seen this light in my dreams. Sometimes it would be inside my house and it always appears when least expected. I cannot describe the wonder and awe upon seeing the dazzling light. It has given me untold strength to continue my penance, knowing that Divine Mother is with me and watching over me. As I continue my japa, the visions occur nearly every day. If I drove my car at night, I would almost certainly see the dazzling light of Divine Mother all around me. In the future, and with Her blessings, I hope to see Her light at all times. For those who decide to continue Maha Shodasi japa, may She also bless you with Her vision.
Desires - For those in ajapa, you will observe that your desires and attachments for anything at all will gradually dissolve. You will want nothing, long for nothing. The transformation will be so complete that you will be content just sitting by yourself, with a blank mind. Why bother doing anything else? I do not care if I live or die. Past and future become irrelevant, it is only the now that matters. It is difficult to describe but one word would be detachment. You are detached under all circumstances. Nothing matters. You simply exist and exhaust your karmas. This will be a state that everyone in ajapa will eventually experience. That is when all your samskaras or karmas are destroyed and you reach Kaivalya, isolation. But you are not truly alone, you are with one with the Brahman. To be free in this state, you have accomplished the highest of human endeavours. You will be going back to your home soon and our originator, God, will be waiting for us as we will not transmigrate again. If you read information on jivunmuktas, it will be like it is describing your very self. But even reading about spirituality is a desire that goes also, as is longing for God. Experience this phenomenon yourself and you will arrive at the same conclusion.
Nirvikalpa Samadhi - Over the duration of my ajapa state in the last 18 months, the period of absolute thoughtlessness has increased dramatically. This is first observed in meditation where it is easy to see the state of your mind, how long you can maintain the "no-thought" nirodha state where there are no impressions in your consciousness. Those in ajapa will notice the period of nirodha will increase until you do not experience any thought whatsoever. This Samadhi will follow you when you live like a normal person with your eyes open. You will observe that it is rare that you have a thought at all. When this has stabilised, you will spend most of your time in Nirvikalpa Samadhi, where there are no thoughts, but you remain permanently detached and eternally free. Then you are meditating with your eyes open, in blessed thoughtlessness.
Please do not hesitate to contact me if you have any concerns or doubts. Together we can all make it back to God. We all have the fortunate karma to have met on this site and under Ravi we can all make it to the highest consciousness, and succeed on the path of spirituality. Every new visitor to this site has an opportunity to experience God. Simply take the first step and start your sadhana and you will surely succeed.
James Cowan can be contacted at Gjcowan@gmail.com